Marshmallows Float

Things are busy around here so I haven't been updating my blog as much as I would like. So this week we finally got our engagment photos back :) They are natural and so beautiful! Here's a few of my favorites:

I love all of these mainly because Arles and I are goof balls, during the whole session we were having a grand time. I love him and the fact he brings out the best in me. He's everything I ever wanted. Never did I ever think that I could deserve someone who loves me so much, he treats me with the uttermost respect and makes me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world. Only 28 (4 weeks!!!) until we're an eternal family :). 17 days until I take out my endowments!!.

I have to tell this story though. Last week at fhe we had a tiny bonfire complete with s'mores. Well I'm not a huge fan of marshmallows but I ate one anyway. Well Alres decided to make a double decker s'more. That's not even the worst of it. Right after he decided to make a giantic one. It had eight crackers, four marshmallows, two super size marshmallows, and I think four or five pieces of chocolate. He ate half of it then as soon as we got back to my place he went in the bathroom and...well got sick for a while. He came out of the bathroom and said "turns out marshmallows float". Sick. I love him but that was nasty.

Anyways I've been packing up to move back to my parents house until the wedding and I probably should go to bed...night everyone!! I promise I'll update more when I have a minute.

Looking Up

Ok so I left things depressing a couple hours ago but after doing some cleaning, folding, seven loads of laundry (yes it seems I do have that much to wash...poor Arles will have no closet space), packing, all while watching "Letters to Juliet". I feel much better now. Yes I over-dramatize things and yes I'm somewhat of an emotional wreck sometimes but I know that I'm not in it alone anymore. Perhaps it was nice to have an evening to myself to realize this. Even when he's not here, he's only a phone call away :)

I love being near him. The sprituality that radiates from him is amazing. No matter how down I am or how stressed he calms me down. Even if he is trying to blow on my stomach...it usually turns into a battle for about ten to twenty minutes. I love him even if he tries to torture me... :P. Anyways I am heading to bed early tonight so I can wake up ready for more planning tomorrow.

Really??

Seriously? Who stands there crying over the kitchen sink while doing the dishes? Apparently me :P I guess my first 'wedding planning break down' has just occured. Things are going really smooth, they are, but I suppose I'm just stressing. I have five weeks left and I'm starting to stress over everything we have left. It'll pass I'm sure, but for the time being I have more cleaning and packing to do. I hate tears I really do.

Worthy to Enter

I have one.

I have a temple recommend.

I'm just one signature away from being able to enter.

I'm Going Inside {Someday} Soon

Every day we get a little bit closer. Every day we grow closer together. We can be sitting there and I find myself just staring at him while he sleeps (he seems to fall alseep on my couch quite often :P). Today was interesting though, I had a full Sunday talking about temples and I loved every minute of it. As you can guess it's always been a very important part of my life and I get older I know it will continue to be :). Again I brought to tears as my parents and Arles were explaining the layout of the Salt Lake Temple (my family just got back from Salt Lake and apparently at the visiters center there is a replica of the inside). This doesn't seem real and I sometimes can't believe that in a months time I will be able to go past the front desk inside the Cardston as well as every temple on the earth. There is so much I want to know about. So much I have to learn. Ever since I got engaged I seem to be imporving myself; I no longer watch sketchy movies, I am striving to keep my thoughts and actions clean as well as attending temple prep classes. I want to be as prepared for this as possible. I can't wait until I have a recommend in hand and Arles beside me as I enter for the first time. It's only 36 days away!

Just over a month then I will follow President Monson's council to attend sessions as often as we can. Soon I can go anytime I wish. The sealing may be for both of us (I'm so exicted to take this step) but the endowment is for me. It is very personal and although Arles will be with me every step of the way into eternity I am doing this part for me. Not because I am getting married, but like I decided earlier this year. This is for me. I love this gospel and love the people who have brought me to this point. And now the people who will take me forward. Things will change. That's a guantee. But I'm not scared anymore, I'm excited for the future and how things have worked out. Life is good :)

Forever Isn't Long at All

I feel like this post has been stewing for a while now but never had the courage to write it out. Blogging is truly the window to my thoughts. There's only one person who can see into my mind and he's my best friend. I feel like we've known each other for a very long time. The more I'm around him the more I know he's the one for me.

Anyways back to what I originally planned to write. Here it goes. I was re-reading some blog posts from not to long ago and it made me realize how lucky I am now. I was in a dark place. A place I never want to go back to. I was being hurt by someone, someone who I really cared about and at the time I thought I was happy. I thought I could fix it;  I thought I knew what I was doing. I didn't. I broke off the toxic relationship and I believe that was the best decision of my life.

Without everything that happened to me I would not be ready for what came next. Arles. It was almost two weeks after everything ended that I saw him. He was what I always wanted, what I knew was good for me but I didn't feel that I deserved him. Not that I ever talked to him :P Like I said I felt very inadaquate of him. But funny enough I was told that he thought the exact about me.

Both of us have experienced things that have brought us both to this point. Without those experiences I would not have him right now. I remember reading somewhere that there is more then one person out there for you, that any worthy young man and any worthy young woman can make it work. But I know that Arles and I are meant for each other. He is outgoing and fun, I'm more quiet and observant. But he brings out a side that most people don't see. I'm spontaneous and fun. I ran through a water park fully clothed the other day. Just randomly :P. Arles looked at me as we were driving by and said "do you want to go?" my reply was "right now?" he answered "yup" so we did.

We just get along, I don't think we've had a serious argument yet. We've been planning this wedding for almost a month now and we have not hit any snags. Everything just seems to fall into place for us. Basically all we have left to do is the finishing touches. We have the temple booked and my endowment apointment booked. That's all that matters :)

Have I mentioned how grateful I am that he can take me to the temple? Well I am. Everytime I think about going it brings tears to my eyes. This is all I have wanted for a very long time. I had even decided that I didn't need a man to take me, that I was going to go just for me. Well that's when Arles was thrown into the mix :P but I find it interesting that as soon as I decided I was going for me, that the Lord found me ready enough for marriage. I not saying I feel ready yet, not in the least but I know that if it was wrong I would know. My parents would know. That everyone really close to me would know. But none of us have those feelings.

Yes we have been getting looks and people talk behind our backs. They think that we're taking it to fast. Granted I know we did. But you know what? We have eternity to get to know each other and waiting a certain length of time would be stupid. We both knew and so why put it off?

I really love this man. He is my everything and really, who else would sit through Harry Potter with me when he hasn't even seen the other movies? :P I am the lucky one. I can't believe that I have him in my life. And that in seven weeks we will be in the sealing room being bound for all time and eternity :).

All time and eternity!

My New Family :)

I just got back from visiting my new family and I have to say although I was super nervous I felt right at home, my in-laws are all great and made me feel like part of the family. Arles is from the middle of no where aka Bella Coola...so it took us about ten hours on the first day and three or four on the second to get there. But it was so worth it, the mountains and surounding area is so beautiful!

Again I mention I was super nevous to meet the family, so for the first little bit I really didn't talk. But as I got more comfortable I talked more and more, so much in fact that when my father-in-law Denis asked me to say closing prayer after I said it I replied with "does this mean I don't have to give my testimony?". All I got was a laugh and "well we would love it if you still did" *smile*. So I did. It was great. Actually he gave a great lesson on adversity, I love lessons that make you think and reflect on what they are there for. Had it not been for some experiences that I had the past few months I would not have been prepared for Arles. After the most difficult trials, comes the best blessings :).

Anyways I also got to see my niece. She is so cute! I could hold her all day long. I can't wait to see her in a month and a little bit, it's like holding heaven in your arms I love it :). That little girl is going to be quite spoiled by her aunty Julie and uncle Arles (well uncle Arles will just have to dip into the emergency shoe fund to let his lovely wife spoil her :P) .

There is so much family but I'm grateful that they all have accepted me into the family. I love Arles and I love them too. I can't wait to become a Tippie and be part of all the Tippie name has to offer.

On a ligher note here are all the stupid things I said and did while on the trip. Enjoy!!

"It feels like a piano"

"I haven't seen that move
You haven't?
Oh wait...yes I have, what am I saying??"

*Going to kick Arles while holding a cupcake*
*Feet fly out from under me*
*Thump*
"Ouch"
*Arles turns around*
"Are you ok?"
"Yeah...at least I saved the cupcake"
(from the kitchen) "What did the cat just do?"
*laughter* "It wasn't the cat, Julie just tried to kick me and just fell!"
*Arles lies down next to me and we both block the hallway*

"You're having a moment of boyhood"

I love this man