Forever Isn't Long at All

I feel like this post has been stewing for a while now but never had the courage to write it out. Blogging is truly the window to my thoughts. There's only one person who can see into my mind and he's my best friend. I feel like we've known each other for a very long time. The more I'm around him the more I know he's the one for me.

Anyways back to what I originally planned to write. Here it goes. I was re-reading some blog posts from not to long ago and it made me realize how lucky I am now. I was in a dark place. A place I never want to go back to. I was being hurt by someone, someone who I really cared about and at the time I thought I was happy. I thought I could fix it;  I thought I knew what I was doing. I didn't. I broke off the toxic relationship and I believe that was the best decision of my life.

Without everything that happened to me I would not be ready for what came next. Arles. It was almost two weeks after everything ended that I saw him. He was what I always wanted, what I knew was good for me but I didn't feel that I deserved him. Not that I ever talked to him :P Like I said I felt very inadaquate of him. But funny enough I was told that he thought the exact about me.

Both of us have experienced things that have brought us both to this point. Without those experiences I would not have him right now. I remember reading somewhere that there is more then one person out there for you, that any worthy young man and any worthy young woman can make it work. But I know that Arles and I are meant for each other. He is outgoing and fun, I'm more quiet and observant. But he brings out a side that most people don't see. I'm spontaneous and fun. I ran through a water park fully clothed the other day. Just randomly :P. Arles looked at me as we were driving by and said "do you want to go?" my reply was "right now?" he answered "yup" so we did.

We just get along, I don't think we've had a serious argument yet. We've been planning this wedding for almost a month now and we have not hit any snags. Everything just seems to fall into place for us. Basically all we have left to do is the finishing touches. We have the temple booked and my endowment apointment booked. That's all that matters :)

Have I mentioned how grateful I am that he can take me to the temple? Well I am. Everytime I think about going it brings tears to my eyes. This is all I have wanted for a very long time. I had even decided that I didn't need a man to take me, that I was going to go just for me. Well that's when Arles was thrown into the mix :P but I find it interesting that as soon as I decided I was going for me, that the Lord found me ready enough for marriage. I not saying I feel ready yet, not in the least but I know that if it was wrong I would know. My parents would know. That everyone really close to me would know. But none of us have those feelings.

Yes we have been getting looks and people talk behind our backs. They think that we're taking it to fast. Granted I know we did. But you know what? We have eternity to get to know each other and waiting a certain length of time would be stupid. We both knew and so why put it off?

I really love this man. He is my everything and really, who else would sit through Harry Potter with me when he hasn't even seen the other movies? :P I am the lucky one. I can't believe that I have him in my life. And that in seven weeks we will be in the sealing room being bound for all time and eternity :).

All time and eternity!

Weekend Updates :)

First I would like to apolagize. I didn't take any pictures of my weekend. It was the YSA conference this weekend so I thought I would document it. Well that didn't happen :P. Sorry! It was a great conference never the less, there were tons of great classes and activities and I gained some new knowlege when it comes to goals :). I'm the type of person who has them but doesn't write them down but I learned I need to in order to succeed. Without goals you would have no direction or something to work towards. So I've started to write them down in hopes that my goals will become a reality. It was a great over all weekend. To top it off it was lovely weather. No more rain for us (I hope).

My talk on Sunday went well. I learned tons about Spencer W Kimball and can't believe all he went through. Not only was he extremely humble but he was a great prophet :) I was so grateful to have the opportunity to learn about him. He's one person I would like to learn more about. Did you know that as a child he used to sing hymns and memorize scriptures as he milked the cows? What child wants to do that? Times really have changed. He also had both parents die by the age of twenty two. I can't even imagine what it would be like to lose both parents at such a young age. I love mine dearly and I love learning about the prophets and what brought them to the point they were at when they became prophet. They are amazing men :).

Oh and I'm about half way through that book I bought a month ago. I love it and am learning so much. I'm glad that I finally have time to catch up on my reading after months of only text books. I am actually reading a book about temples and it's so refreshing. I don;t understand everything that goes on in there. Nor will I for a while but this book does help me understand some things. I'll tell you how the rest of it goes.

Also yesterday I Julie Marie went bridge jumping...mind you I only jumped once and it was freezing cold but I did it and you know what? I actually liked it (besides being freezing cold) and to be quite honest I will probably do it again this summer. In warmer weather of course :)

Little Shoes :)

all pictures found on: http://www.joyfolieblog.com/

Kalina showed me this website last night and I may be in love, if I had a little girl right now I would buy all of these...really I love them. And there are tons more where these came from!

Places I Want to Go

I would love to travel the world someday, after going on my Europe trip I realized how much I love seeing other countries and cultures. Here's a few of the places I would like to visit :)



England



Scotland

Ireland

France (again)

Italy <3 (again)

Germany

Australia

So there you have it, I'm sure there are many other places that I will come up with but for now these will do :P.

PS: I just noticed that most of these places are in Europe, anyone care to take me, I'm small enough to fit into a suite case...please?

Found on google

While looking up random things on google because I don't feel like doing my readings at the present time I came across the picture above. When I own my own home and have money to spare (not likely but anyway...) I will own this book case, and have a room for it too. I love reading and imagining having this gorgeous book case as well as a room to put it in makes me happy. Can you imagine having a room where you can go and have a huge selection of books to read? I would never get bored! And it's better then TV. Seriously I would spend hours in there and probably never come out. Ok so maybe it won't happen, actually I know it won't but it's fun to dream right? :P

So I started school yesterday...it wasn't to bad though. I think I'm going to enjoy my classes and there aren't as many assignments this semster so maybe it won't be as hard as the second years tell us? I hope not anyway. So I really should do my readings...lame.