Bliss :)

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A good afternoon :)

For those of you who are not aware of the state of my room, before yesterday, had not a 'makeover' (aka a nice cleaning) in months. But yesterday I decided that a cluttered room makes a cluttered mind so I buckled down and did it, I even went as far as to tackle the front enrty. I love spring cleaning :) and chocolate is always a welcomed addition to any day....

Also Kalina and I have this impulse to change up our living room, but even though I was dieing to do it last night we decided to wait for Kim and her expert interior design ways to get back from a school trip. But I can't wait to change things up, it's almost spring time so I feel a need for a change. I see all the cute colors, flowers and spring things that I want to get them all. But my bank account is not happy with me as of late so I'm trying to resist :P Hopefully in a month (if all goes well) though I'll be making some money again :P. 

Only three weeks then I'm free!!

Stronger

Every day I become a little bit stronger. Life has still been a yo-yo lately, what else is new right? Well this week I made some hard decisions and I feel that they are for the best. I am grateful for parents who sit with me and comfort me through everything, I honestly don't know how I would last without them. Even when they know perfectly well that I am being stupid they stand by me waiting for me to come to the realization on my own. And when I do they are there with open arms. It's been hard but I just keep holding onto the hope that after the storm will come the sunshine. I know this will be true and in a little while I will be able to look back on this and realize how much stronger I have become. For now though I am going to get through the next couple of weeks and hopefully go back to work :)

Life is very interesting... in the end, some of your greatest pains, become your greatest strengths.
[Drew Barrymore]

Looking Up

Today has already been great :) Although I went to bed at four this morning (ooops...) I woke up so excited for the day. Mostly because I have been planning all week to wear a dress, but I couldn't earlier this week due to practicum :P. I loved it though, dresses make me feel happier. I don't know why but what you wear often defines your mood, so when I put on a cute dress I feel good and therefore my mood is lightened as well.

Tonight I went to my parents for dinner and although my mom and dad left for the temple I had a great conversation with my mom. I am so happy that I have that kind of relationship, the kind where we can discuss anything and she listens and understands me. I also LOVE how much my parents attend the temple, because of them I have had grown up with a love and yearning for going inside to be sealed like they are. We can be an eternal family because of the decisions they have made. I love them.

I got to watch A Walk to Remember tonight, I forgot how much I love this movie. It may be an older one but it still makes me cry. I like how it's a simple love story, no sex, no uneeded making out, hardly any swearing, it's just a sweet simple love story. I would recomend it for all ages (if you haven't already seen it). Also my visiting teachers are taking me to the dance tonight so I don't have to go alone. It's amazing how when I felt the most alone the Lord provided me with visiting teachers to make me feel included in my ward. I am so happy today.

This week I have been so happy, even with school and assignments I feel great. It's been a long time since I've felt this way. Even with a million things to do this weekend I feel...joyous, I am so happy with where I am in life. I'll admit one month ago I didn't know how I would get through the rest of the semester but things started turning around two weeks ago, I started to feel like myself again. If anything I am stronger then I was and I have a better sense of what I want. I've rounded the corner, no looking back :). It's funny how once you start doing things such as paying your tithing and attending FHE things immediently start getting better. I can't wait to see what other blessings are in store because it seems that after the biggest storms comes the largest blessings.

Part Two

So I'm currently writting an essay on prosocial behaviour, physical violence, and social aggresion found in the show "The Big Comfy Couch". Three pages of it. I'm on page two. Can you say boring? :P Instead of telling you about my pain here's what was stuck in my head all day today:

There now it's stuck in your head as well. After I finish this I have to find ten references of health and family services found in my community :S. Hopefully that doesn't take to long though. Also tomorrow is Friday! Then I can sleep and hopefully enjoy the warm weather. I also just found out my movie off amazon came today, I didn't think it would be here for another month so that was a great surprise :) So now I have something new to watch while I finish my play area and activity planning this weekend.

Also I would like to say I'm so glad it's March, February is a tough month and I'm glad February 2011 is now in my past :). Bring on the warm spring weather and cute summer clothes!!

Summer

Dear Summer,
Come faster, I miss your warmth and am sick of snow, puffy coats, and the cold. I bought a new dress and I want to wear it, soOo I would appreciate it if you would come. Now.
Yours Truly,
Julie Marie

I really want summer to come, not that I don't enjoy school...but I am so ready for it to end and all but today as I was sitting in class for some reason I was thinking about Stirling Days (random I know...) but I was just remembering sunburns, the kiddie carnival, beef on a bun, the parade, and fireworks. I don't really love it all that much but as the sun was shining today I thought of summer and lazy days with my daycare children. I miss it and am SO ready for school to be over and done with. Only five weeks left!

On a happier note (because my posts all seem to be depressing lately) I love my new placement in practicum, I can't say to much about it but I absolutely love it. Also today I didn't wear a big puffy coat, just my hoodie :) It was so nice that I parked in a different parking lot so I enjoyed the warm weather and walked a little further then normal. I didn't even mind :)

Something I do not recommend however is watching an hour and a half of The Big Comfy Couch...I understand why my mom didn't watch it with me when I was younger. I have to watch it for a homework assignment and honestly I'm dieing. Oh well there are worse things I suppose.

Get Back On the Merry Go Round

My roommates and I were talking tonight and Kim brought up and interesting metaphor, I liked the concept so I added some more detail to it:

Life is like a merry go round, you get on and spin at a nice relaxing pace for a while. Then all of a sudden there's the one kid who comes by and asks if he can join you, against your better judgement you say yes, knowing full well that this kid is much bigger and stronger then you and given the opportunity he will try to get you off the merry go round. You could have turned him down but no, your strong enough right? so you said yes. He starts spinning you and again you think to yourself "wow this is getting a little out of control" but you ignore it, thinking all will be well.

Before you know it you are spinning way to fast. You scream and tell them to slow down, you were comfortable with the pace you were at before. "Please go back to the way it was, I liked where I was at!" you say but they continue to spin you faster and faster until you fly off. Does he care? No. And now not only are you face down in the dirt with a skinned knee but now you have to run and try to get back on. All you want to do is give up, to break down and cry. But what good will that do? You will just have to work twice as hard to pick yourself up and catch up again.


Life likes to throw you off sometimes, but you have to decide to pick yourself up off the ground and get back on that merry go round as soon as you can.

Life doesn't stop or slow down for anyone.

Random I know, and it most likely doesn't make that much sense to anyone. But I guess all that matters is that it makes sense to me. Thanks for bearing with me :)

Just Relaxing :)

I am alive! After staying up until five and getting up and six forty five the morning after my last post I had no idea how I was going to function, like really who can function on just under two hours of sleep? Apparently I can, I didn't take a nap all day without the use of energy drinks or coke/pepsi. The next night I'm sad to report I went to bed late as well, but that was my own doing :P.

This week however has been filled with family, sleep, reading, texting, and overall a lazy time. I love it. But with the middle of the week coming quickly I need to get started on homework...lame. But for tonight I'm going to sit back, eat my mini wheats, and watch High School Musical :)

I also found this quote and liked it "Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense"

 There isn't much I can add to it, just that each day is a new day and we should treat it as such. Dwelling on yesterday doesn't do much for today, we must always move forward and not be bothered with yesterday or you might end up with empty tomorrows.